I didn’t want to write this post. Actually, scratch that, I didn’t want to publish this post. Hitting publish meant a bunch of people would know of my intentions for  the next sixty days and totally judge me next time I posted a photo of a delicious pizza on Instagram.

Okay I’m gonna be 100% honest, I ate pizza just four hours ago, but I didn’t even enjoy it, I swear! My boyfriend is super into eating out, like it’s one of his favorite things to do. That new hobby coupled with my IUD means a lot of my clothes have been not fitting me comfortably, and if I wanna be totally transparent, some I can’t even button.

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To be honest, I don’t know if the weight gain is from the hormones or the food, but either way it’s gotta go. I’ve been feeling sluggish lately, and I really rather not drag this feeling with me into the new season. On top of everything, I just booked a flight for my birthday and fourth of July, to an area I rather not have to cover my new rolls with loose tshirts. No disrespect to loose tshirts, they’ve done a lot for me the past few months. The thing is though, I’m very anti-diet. I’m a firm believer that if you want to improve your health or change your body type, whatever your goal is, it needs to be a lifestyle change. Since I’m already a picky eater cutting out certain foods is out of the question. Obviously I’ll avoid pizza, but none of that no carb, low fat, mumo jumbo. As a therapist I’m very self aware, of everything from my emotions to my eating habits. Because of my constant self analyzing I know two things: Candy is basically a food group in my life, I have a hard time saying not to soda and I get cravings that are so intense they make me get out of bed, put on a bra and walk to 7 Eleven at 11:30 at night. True story, recent story, okay it was just last week!
While I enjoy being physically active, I loathe the idea of working out. For this reason I need to find an activity that gets me moving but doesn’t feel like exercise. I’m thinking either pilates or bicycling, or both if I really wanna blow myself away.

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So here’s the challenge, I’m basically going to try to be less of a terrible example for myself. This means getting myself moving, drinking some actual freaking water, and learning to say no to high calorie foods. Today was the perfect example of me eating a meal I was neither excited for nor enjoying, so why did I do it!? Oh yeah, because my boyfriend likes pizza and I didn’t want to run his Sunday afternoon. Somewhere over the next 60 days I want to find the balance of eating well and not intruding on my social life, suggestions are welcome. I have just a few more hours until day 1 begins, so I’m going to make the most of it by finishing all the marshmallows and drinking a coke! Just kidding, I won’t do that, even though I desperately want to. Did I mention we just bought four cases of soda? This may be harder than I had planned for…

How do you manage to say not to unneeded calories? Also, do you have any recommendations for free or low cost online exercise routines?